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( It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know )
yo yo. what be up? mmkay im on the phone with mya and im just weird
right now. So lets see what happened this weekend,Thursday, I went to Bible Study at Charli's house. Tons of
people were there, including my two favorites, Rachie and Mya:-D
It was a lotta fun. Then, me, rachie, justy, katie, chantel, charli,
ashley, and kera stayed after to make shirts. They look so cute:) That
night, me and rach slept over at justines.Friday, I
was so lazy, justine drove me home at like 2. I had to hurry and do a
buncha stuff, then went to school at 6 for wrestling. After that, i got
dropped off at my little Myas where me and rachie slept over. It was so
cute cuz Myas mom peeked her head in to see what we were up to
and mya was like "I wanna go to White Hen" Her mom was like
"okay, lets go!" She was in her jammies and everything but still took
us. shes a cutie.Saturday, I left myas at 6 am!!
Crazie, i know. But i had my last wrestling conference to go to. I was
there ever so long! I got home at almost 6 at night...so exhausted! I
didnt feel much like going out out, so I went to dex's house. We
cuddled and i ended up falling asleep for a bit. When I got home, i
went right to sleep cuz i was oh so tired. Today, I
woke up at like 1..hehe. Caught up with everyone on how their weekends
were, then ate brownies in bed and watched a LiL Lifetime. Im about to
go do a bit of shopping=) then doing drivers ed homeswork.
"You are never given the ability to wish without getting the ability to make it come true"
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[o1.o6.o5>>> sNoWdAy!!!]
tHis WeEk>>> Lets see...this week was pretty short for me. Monday I went to school then hung out with Dex and his family. Tuesday, I went to school and then me and Rach went to Myas. I was so glad to leave my house that day because I got in a fight with my mom over stupid stuff, and its just good to get outta the house when that kinda crap happens. Wednesday was real strange because I didnt go to school. I said i was sick, but at first i just had a feeling i wouldnt have a good day so I stayed home. I ended up getting sick in the end anyways so i suppose it worked out for the best. Then today, i was all prepared to go to escuela and then i was told at 5 am there was no school. I was sOOo happie!! =) Two days in a row i got to stay home, its like another weekend for me. It will be an easy day tomorrow because one school day then a whole weekend to sleep and all that good stuff.
Today, i had lots of things i was supposed to do, but I ended up going to Dex's and then he had work at 7 so i came home to clean and stuff. Fun day though. Mya, im sorry i didnt visit you todai...but i didnt wanna come since those other people were going anyways, I would have felt akward...But I will see you soon, beautiful! Rachie..im glad you got your computer working..i told you, you didnt need a new one. PshHh im just oh so cool8-) lol. i love you kiddo. and Charli, wow..i hope im a little cupid now. Hooking people up is so much fun! =)
lOve yOu aLL
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!!HaPpIe nEw YeAr!!
2005 baby, oh yeah
man oh man, i have the hardest time keeping this thing updated. oh well, what can I say? Im lazy!! Well, New Years Eve was fun. I went with Mya, Susa, and Sammie to youth group. It was reallie fun. Then Alex, mya's MaRiNe[oh yeah] brother, came along too. Hes a cool guy. Other people that went were like Orion, Mike, Timmy, Ross, Katie, Charli, Frida and Ashley. We all just sat around and talked, things got emotional for a bit. Then, people started doing the countdown 5 minutes before midnight. Im like Whoa whoa whoa, whats goin on? So, me and some girls did the countdown at the real time, cuz thats how we roll, shOoT. Then, me, Frida, Sam, Susa, and Ashley went in the street and were screaming "Happy New Year!" to the cars passing by. It was funny cuz im sure all the people thought we were drunk since we were holding our little plastic cups of "sparkling grape juice". But oh well, it was fun. Then, a car came by us and stopped for a second and it was Timmy, Mike and Orion and they mooned us. Ahh...what a great way to start off the new year!
Later on, me, Susa, and Sam went back to Sams house for a sleepover and then a little bit later, Nina and Sarah joined us. We did the usual girl talk and some things i cannot mention in here, but we all had a reallie fun time. We went around and said all of our new years resolutions. [Thats right Mya, its resolution, not revolution, hahah]. I had two resolutions. They were to stop swearing all together and to make things between dexter and i as good as they possibly can be. Both are prettie easy to accomplish.
The last post i said about Dex was a loooooong time ago when we were at a rough point. and actuallie a lot of things have happened since then. I dont feel like talking about all that now though. I will just say that Dex made a stupid choice a few months ago that reallie hurt me and he almost lost me. I guess he realized how much he truly cared for me and he would have done anything to keep me. I stayed with him cuz i cant just walk out on someone I love like that, and we have been doing absolutely perfect for about 3 months now. Our one year anniversary was December 2nd, and things are just so awesome. I love it.
Oh yeahhh and of course, my beautiful Mya is doing sooOoOo much better. Shes been back at home for a while now. She can walk, slight limp for now, but she calls that her pimp walk=) she is getting her cast off on Monday. The cast that Rachie and I beautifully decorated I might add. She talks bout herself like alwaise, lol. hmmm what else?...shes coming back to school within the next couple months which shall be awesome as well. Theres gonna be a mob of people around her I know, but she loves attention so she wont mind at all.^_^
By the way....its January 1st...middle of winter..and its RaInIng and there are thunderstorms. how kick ace is this?!?
love you all to pieces
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16 kisses| ...WaNnA KiSs mE?
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wowie, where to start? i havent updated this thing in forever. Lots of things have changed in my life, but the most important thing, and the only thing worth talking about right now, is what happened to Mya. She is the one who persisted me forever to update this, so im doing it for her. For those of you who don't know what happened, im not going to share much information about it, but Mya was in an accident on Sundai and she needs our help. Its so weird to think how you can love someone so much and not even realize how much you truly care about them until something bad happens to them. I mean i know i loved Mya and shes a good friend of mine, but just having her be in the hospital and having the doctors say she might not make it, made me realize i might lose this wonderful, beautiful person. I couldn't deal with that. I know i am not alone in my thinking though. Another reallie good friend of mine, sweet Rachie, was there to witness everything with me. We are two of Myas closest friends and we had to witness her laying on the ground, her body motionless, her hair in her face, and her lips purple, deadlike. It was so sickening, I cant even explain it. She has been in the hospital for 5 nights now, and she had to have brain surgery to release pressure on her brain stem. Along with that, she has a broken wrist, and lots of cuts and bruises. The doctors dont know yet if she will come out of this with brain problems or anything. I have no clue what to think. Im worried out of my mind. I cry myself to sleep all the time. I just love mya so much and i want her to be back so bad. All i ever do now is talk about her, how much i love her, all the good times we had together. Me and Rach visit her every single day. We took monday off of school cuz after sundai night, after we witnessed what we did, we couldnt drag ourselves back there. We were at the hospital monday from 11 to 8. We got to see her 4 or 5 times, and then we had to stop hogging her cuz other loving friends had stopped by to see her. The next day we went back, and they told us we couldnt see her anymore for a while cuz she had her surgery and her brain needed time to heal:( So, i havent seen her since monday and its now Thursdai and im trying to be patient but its not working. Rach and I are making a notebook and writing everything in it that mya is missing so she is all filled in on things when she gets better. I went out the other night and bought a buncha things to decorate her room with when she comes home. I got green star balloons since she loves green and a Get Well Soon balloon with Elmo on it since she loves Elmo:) We got glow in the dark stars to put all over her ceiling too so when shes at the hospital, she can look up and see the stars that she loves so much.Me and Rach are gonna go to Sams Club and get a giant thing of Slim Jims, Wild Berry Skittles, and Jiffy peanut butter since she loves all that stuff too. Man o man, i just cant wait till she is awake and i can talk to her. Im praying she wont have any brain damage. I love her sooooo incredibly much. Everyone who reads this, please pray for Mya and her whole family.
"And your eyes must do some r a i n i n g if you are ever going to grow."
 *[Mya]*~ I love you so much babe. Your a gorgeous person on the inside and outside. So many people care so much about you. Everyone at school is a mess. People are crying constantly for you. Me, Rachi, and Ashley have seen the counselors every dai since the accident. Your whole family is a wreck too, specially your mom. Everyone is praying for you and soooo many people care so deeply for you. I hope you never ever feel unloved cuz thats definitally not true. If you ever have any problems, you should know you can come to me. Now im going to be stalking you until you tell me every little problem you ever have again, even if its something like losing a CD or breaking a nail, hehe. Your a f i g h e r, we all know that. Stay strong, beautiful.<3
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argh, my computer is being reallie polish so im not gonna post pictures with this entry. A lot has been goin on in my mind right now, about school starting up and all that crap, and about dex. Im registering for school tomorrow and I hope i have 7th period lunch cuz almost everyone has it 7th. I stayed up till 5 this morning reading a book for english, so now i got a week left to read the other one before school starts, how fun. I usuallie dont talk about my problems in here but i reallie dont care right now. Dex and I....well, i reallie dont kno what to say bout us. He told me Friday night[Friday the 13th...OoOo spooky, lol] that he was confused about his feelings for me and he liked me less and things like that and of course i was sad. I got the interpretation that he didnt love me anymore, but i guess that wasnt the case. Anyway, I thought we were going to break up, i reallie wasnt sure. We talked on the phone and i was trying to understand his feelings. Of course I wasnt mad at him, i cant be mad for how he feels, you know? But I wanted to know what he wanted to do about it. We didnt break up. Actuallie the phone conversation ended with him telling me he was sorry, he wasnt thinking straight, and he still does love me. But ever since then, I have been really scared. I dont know why exactly. Well I mean, if this came out of the blue this time, it can happen again at any moment, and I guess i reallie shouldnt be thinking like that right now but I cant help it. One of the biggest fears I have is losing someone I am in love with. I know we are young and all that shit, but either way, when you love someone and they dont love you back, that can still have a lot of damage. I also don't know if hes telling me the truth. I want to believe him on this, and dont get me wrong, i have a lot of trust for Dex, but im afraid that hes only saying he loves me and he isnt confused anymore and things like that because he doesnt like hurting me, so he wants to tell me that so I dont get hurt. But if that is the case, im just going to get more hurt in the end anyway because the feelings i thought he still has for me aren't really there, you know? ::sigh:: Well, i hope things work out with us, i just dont know right now....</3
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haha its Friday the 13th, i picked a good day to update my LJ didnt I? I have been reallie busy lately, hanging out with people, trying to have my social life, and reading my books for english ::Sigh:: I dont even remember exactly what I have been doing, just lots of hanging out with people, some drama I had with Tracy, Nina, Sus, and Sammie, but i love em and were all good now. Yesterdai was Susana's birthday!! Happie birthdai cousin!! And todai was the Kim-Peters Family Reunion, good times with that...Uncle Bubba had to start a fight about the lawnmower again and that didnt go down too well, so Sus and I decided to leave after a couple hours. Last night was Susa's party, it was lots of fun. Me, Trace, Nina, Sammie, Nisha, Jamie, Timmy, Dex, Jim, Jer, Mike, Ron, Emil, Sean, and Gavin all went. We hung out, watched a music video and such that Dex, Jim, Jer, and Mike U made when they were at Mike's house for the weekend. That was quite amusing. Later on, we went to McDonalds where Tracy, Nina, and I got ice cream. Emil, Ron, Jimmy, and Jeremy ended up staying over until like 12:30 and I felt like putting makeup on the boys. So, Nina put makeup on Jer, and I did it to Jimmy, i even gave him a little mole, hehe. They looked so sillie, Ron put makeup on too, he kinda liked it. LoL Ron, i think the bright red lipstick is a good color on you;) Then, Jimmy topped it off by putting on Susanas homecoming dress, boobs and all. It was HILARIOUS...ahh we took pics so dont worrie if you missed out;) Then, after the boys left, we did what girls normally do on sleepovers, mess with people onlyne and PiG oUt!! I ate sOoo much that night, im surprised my stomach didnt burst ;) Of course there was drama, Sam didn't sleepover and we called her because some things needed to be said to her. I dont think anything got through to her, but we tried right? But whatever, drama is gonna happen no matter what, and its what makes your life interesting. But I suppose people like Kenny wouldnt know that because he supposidly never has drama, or so he says. ahh...i crack myself up. AnYwAys, Susanas older sis had Rons sister, Rachel, and another friend sleepover too. and so we all ended up having a big girl talk and i went to sleep around 6:30. Susanas mom is so cute because Tracy and I were the last ones to leave, and she insisted we eat before we left, so we said we wanted waffles. We come downstairs to this feast a little bit later of a big stack of waffles, eggs, and sausage. Whata sweet mom, susa, be nicer to her! lol. Oh yeah!! And when i came home todai, i saw this one thing on the news that was talking about this candy called Lucas, and it said that it has more then double the allowed lead rate in something consumable. So, the product is being banned from stores, and they recommended anyone who has consumed it, gets checked for lead poisoning. I have been eating that stuff since i was in 2nd grade. LoL me and Desiree used to walk to buy some after school everie dai. So me, being paranoid Little Erika, requested a doctors appointment. Hehe:) I have one bottle of Lucas at my house right now...i wonder if i can sell it on Ebay now...? Well im not doing anything tonight, im gonna stay in cuz i gotta keep reading for english! But the Olympics are on now so imma go watch em-_-
I'd rather be filled with f l a w s and live life trying to improve myself than to be p e r f e c t and live knowing theres nothing left for yOu to do.
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This weekend was kinda weird...on Friday, during the day dex came over for a little bit because he had an interview at park place so he stopped by on the way home, and we worked some things out, which was good cuz we needed that, then at like 1 in the mornin Danny came and picked me up, cuz hes so sweet:), and took me to ninas house to sleepover. LoL, i wouldnt have been comin over at that time, but ninas parents were outta town so they didnt know...shhO:-) then we watched some of a movie, Love Actually, its a great movie, watch it with your family for Christmas, heck, invite your gramma over and watch it too;) haha just kiddin, its kinda umm...nasty? yeah...anyway, then Saturdai, i went home and took a shower, changed clothes, all that good stuff, then came back to Ninas with Sam, Susa, and Tracy and we all just hung out there for the night. We were gonna go out but plans got ruined, so we juss stayed in and watched a movie, then we watched the Michael Jackson Movie on VH1...very scarie. Ninas parents came home late and Tracy, Sam, and I were bored so we were singing opera and ninas dad was gonna give me a dollar if i did a solo for him...haha hes sillie..anyway, everyone ended up leavin at like 11 and nina ended up askin me if i wanted to stay over again so i said sure. Then at like 11 something, Sam called and asked about Nina going to Six Flags and then nina said i was over and sam told her she could invite me too..and sam was gonna ask tracy to come too...then i didnt have my stuff like clothes or anything so i was like well i guess i cant go then. and eventuallie nina was like well we will drop you off in the morning on the way to sammies, and i said ok. I could have called my dad in the morning before work when he would have his phone on and asked him to bring me down stuff, but since they were alreadie gonna go without me, i was like whatever, it didnt matter anymore. So yeah, now its Sundai and im sitting here being bored and they are at Six Flags without me...how sweet. and my LiL Susa is there too! Cuz she went with her cousins...and i am in kinda a bad mood so i dont wanna do anything today anymore. But i think my daddie is gonna take me shoppin when he gets home:) cuz hes cool like that8-) Oh yeah..and i think dex thinks im in colorado, lol cuz i was supposed to go to my cousins house on Saturdai for a week, but i talked with my mom and she needs me to babysit this week so if i went to their house i could only stay till Tuesdai, and i would rather visit them when i can be there longer, ya kno? But anyway, i told dex the cousin i was gonna go see wasnt the Colorado one, but he doesnt listen to me...hah well my dads home now so shoppin time:) peash...
"But if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined, you can't change your destiny. Then I guess I'll just keep moving and someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going."
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la la la...hi there, i tried updating my LJ last night but then my post got deleated because LJ was being gay, so im gonna try again. I have been real bad at updating cuz im lazy:-D hehe, so i will start at the 2nd, it was dex and my 8th month so i went over to his house and we just hung out for the dai, then at night, i went over to ninas with sammie, tracy, and susana and we ended up orderin pizza and just staying in for the night. Then on the 3rd, Bobby, Tracy, Susa, and I went to the mall to look for Ninas birthday gift, we didnt find it tho, then Bobby gave me $1.32 and Tracy gave me $2.00 so i could buy a shirt, lol. but hey, it was a cUtE shirt:) LoL remember on the way to the mall, the post it guy??[tracy, bobby and sus] it was so funnie...this hindu guy had a post it note on his chin and he knew it was there, and was like thinkin it was cool or something. Then we were all staring and cracking up and the guy turned and looked at Bobbys mom and she was staring at him and laughing and he saw her and ahh it was great...Then yesterdai, it was Ninas birthday and she had people over so I went and it was fun. I got a lil mad at dex but thats usual cuz hes stupid sometimes when other people are around. Then todai, nina, sammie, tracy, susa and i all went walkin around and shopped, then went to BK, then back to ninas. Sammie and I were walking behind the rest of the crew and this guy stopped his car in the middle of the road to talk to us!! We couldnt hear what he was saying, all i heard was "mamacita" Then, he started turnin his car around to go our direction, and we all ran. LoL, it was funnie, but scarie. Then at ninas we made smoothies and umm...something interesting happened with that but im not gonna post it here;) but yeah, thats basically what i have been doing lately, and tomorrow dex is leaving to go with Jimmy, Jeremy, and Sean to Mike U's for the weekend, i know hes gonna end up doing something stupid that im gonna get mad at, so that should be fun, right? ::sigh::
"Dont cry...I [l o v e] your smile..."
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La La La...wOwie im bOred, lets see whats been happening lately...Yesterdai, i prettie much was LaZzZy during the day, i talked with Dex on the phone while i watched the Ashlee Simpson Show marathon, lol, then at night, Susa came over, and then Me, Susa, Dexter, Jimmy, and Sean all went to see Napoleon Dynomite. It was ReALLy funnie, and it had no point to it reallie, but overall it was good. And Dex and I have had talks about how he kinda ignores me when we are with other people, and I guess at the movies it was kinda a test to see if he would ignore me again, after he promised he wouldnt, and he did a reallie good job not ignoring me:-D Actuallie, he paid most of his attention to me, so that made me feel good:) And todai, i went to ze mall with Tracy. We went to Woodfield and I got a cute blue skirt from Forever XXI, it kinda looks like something you would see at Hollister but it WaSN't!! I would nEvEr ever shop there!! And then I got a free thong from Victoria's Secret:-D thanx trac, lol, and i couldnt go to the mall without getting one of those pretzels from Aunite Anne's...those are sOoOO yummie! And when i came home, i was reallie tired so I took a LiL nap and then i went to go visit my sister. Shes so cool, but she leaves me for Marquette College in a LiL bit:'(...and nina...im real sorrie to hear bout your softball injuries..you alwasie get hurt in softball i swear! Im crossin my fingers that you wont get a black eye tho!! love you!
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to h. o. l. d. i. t. *[together]* when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
 8 months tomorrow!
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hey there! the last couple days have been very interesting...i went to dex's house on wednesdai, its the first time i saw him since he went to Lake Geneva...we had a good time, like we alwaise do when we hang out...i was there from like 12:30 till 5:30 and then i came home and my mom went psycho on me, more then usual. A lotta crap happened there that i dont wanna talk about, and then I called dex and told him what happened, and he comforted me of course, cuz hes juss awesome like that:) Then I called Tracy, and her, Nina, and Susa walked to my house and picked me up. We went back to Tracys and hung out, ate food, watched the Cubs game, called random people singing Nsync songs, and then we all went to ninas to sleepover. The 3 of them had a girl talk while i was on the phone with dex and then we all stayed up till 4 am talkin bout all the things girls talk about normally at sleepovers. Then, we all went home at like 12:30 the next dai and my mom was being reallie mean to me so i just went in my room and slept a lot and that was about it.and Today, i had to babysit for a lil bit, and then my mom took me to Susas house and from there, we walked to ninas to drop off some pajamas, she wasnt home but we ended up stayin and talking with her parents for like an hour, i ate lunch thereO:-), then we went to Discovery to buy some stuff, then we went to my grammas so i could see her for a bit. It was reallie funnie cuz when me and Susana were in another room, we heard my Little sister tell my grandma, "Wow, Gramma, thats hott!" Now thats somethin you juss dont say to your gramma...lol so that was a good moment. Then, we walked to Erica's and hung out there for the night...fun stuff
"And I don't want to worry...About being on time
I see the way you hurry
And time runs your life
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